I have never liked ending any kind of a relationship.  Even when I was young and didn’t like a boy I was dating anymore, I had a hard time being the one to say so.  I can’t even find it in me to tell a hairdresser I don’t like my hair cut or highlights, so you can imagine how hard it is for me to realize my audiologist isn’t right for me anymore.  Ouch, I said it.  I have to break up with my audiologist and try someone new.

I started to tell you what’s behind this decision, but I realized it’s not that important to take up your time with the details.  Trust me when I tell you she’s let me down too much in the past two years and I don’t feel like I have someone helping me anymore. In our recent communications, she not only wasn’t up on some new things I was interested in, but she hadn’t told me about the ones she did like.  And most importantly, she never acknowledged the part about my hearing aids beeping randomly and not working properly again/still/always.  So now the challenge is to find someone new after thirty something years.

Obviously, I don’t want to go to the same place and use someone else there.  I’d have to face her and I’d be too uncomfortable for that. So we started the search and this Friday, I’m going to someone new.  Starting over after all this time isn’t fun – it’s terrifying.  What if it doesn’t work out? What if it goes badly? What if, what if, what if?  Wish me luck and hope I don’t have to “say the word baseball, say the word ice cream…”

I had no idea I could be such a wimp.